[He watches in quiet, affectionate awe as Gentaro takes it in stride and showers him with more affection than he ever thought possible. Shifting so Gentaro can lay atop him comfortably, he wraps his arms around him tightly, almost like he's clinging.
I hope it reminds her of what she's done. Dice can't imagine a more loving reaction to this. He's never entirely sure how to handle his mother's situation, or her absolutely horrific decisions, but he found Gentaro and Ramuda, and they're his world now.
Gentaro is his now. Dice's love and efforts won't be rejected or looked down on ever again, even when they're not quite good enough by other peoples' standards.
His eyes close at the kiss, and he returns it with all the emotion he can't put into words. If this is what being loved feels like, he's glad he made every stupid decision in life that led him to Gentaro's side.]
I don't want you to leave me. Ever.
[That is damn hard for Dice to admit. That he cares about anything but money and being thrilled nearly to death might be shocking to anyone but Fling Posse, but that he cares this much is bound to confound even Gentaro. At least, that's what Dice thinks.]
D'you know how scared I was when I thought you hated me? So don't even joke about stuff like that ever again, okay? I'm... I'm sorry about the manuscript. But don't hate me. Please.
[ Gentaro loves him. He loves him so much that it feels overwhelming, but in a good way. Being held like this is new and strange, but he thinks he could get used to it.
It breaks his heart, how much he'd hurt Dice. He looks down at him, memorizing his face, looking into his eyes. Dice has always had beautiful eyes, but it's like all those feelings have been amplified.
He really was an idiot for trying to pull away. Fear is a tricky thing, though. But even if he had his reasons, they weren't good reasons, and Gentaro will never make excuses. It's even worse to think about, now that he knows about his past.
He'll devote his life to making Dice happy, instead. It's a powerful thought, and Gentaro kisses him, deeper and more loving than the previous kisses they've shared. ]
I won't leave you, [ he says, when he pulls away just slightly. Their lips are still so close together; Gentaro's brush just lightly against Dice's as he talks. ]
You have no reason to apologize. When I took the manuscript, I considered using it in much the same way. It was more impactful coming from you. [ A pause. ] I will never treat you that way, ever again. I could never hate you.
I'm sorry, Dice. [ He kisses him again, because he'll never get enough of him. ] Whatever I need to do to make amends... simply tell me, and I will do it.
[It isn't like Dice knows everything, but knowing that Gentaro isn't who he says he is, and piecing things together, made it pretty evident that the manuscript was even more important on a personal level than even a political one. He honestly thought Gentaro might get mad at him over everything, over always having had a connection he could have leveraged, if only he'd known he needed to. They had to go for the worst-case options, and Dice understands that, but still. He doesn't want to think right now about doing a damn thing to hurt Gentaro. His own mother has already done enough by trying to destroy Ramuda. (And Dice doesn't even know so, so much...)
He figures he'll have to come clean to Ramuda, too, now. Ramuda might punch him, though. That'd be fine. He'd deserve that one.
For now, he's happy to just bask in Gentaro's reassurances. He runs his hands up Gentaro's back and slips one into his hair, keeping him close.]
I don't wanna hear you apologize... It ain't like that. I coulda told you how I felt a long time ago, right? And we coulda had this talk a long time ago. But I was bein' stupid.
[He knows, he knows.]
You don't hafta do anything. Stay with me, I mean, but... Other than that... Don't act like lovin' me is some kinda thing you have to do because you feel bad, is all.
[Slowly, softly, gently, he kisses Gentaro, but this time he lets it slip into something a little deeper, something committed and bold. When he finally breaks away from it, he murmurs:]
I'm gonna protect you so you can protect your brother. And when he wakes up, you better introduce me as your favorite dumbass.
[ How readily Dice's touch affects him is-- It's a little embarrassing. Gentaro shivers against him, eyes closing as he leans into the touch like a cat.
They're moving toward something pivotal, he knows. It excites him, makes him feel a thrill he's never experienced. And the kiss--it's tinged with something Gentaro has only dreamed about. His breath catches in his chest, color blooming across his cheeks. ]
Mm. We could have both communicated better, no? [ He opens his eyes, gazing down at him with open adoration and something a little more heated. ] As far as loving you.... Not once has it been an obligation or burden.
I'll stay by your side, just as you will mine. We'll protect each other, as we always have. [ He laughs softly, then, and it's much lighter and more free than it's ever sounded. ] As for meeting my brother... Why don't I introduce you as-- [ a pause ] --"the person I want to spend my life with"?
[This hurts in all the ways Dice never thought he could hurt. He aches for more of this, like he's starving, like he'll fade away at any moment if he doesn't have every part of Gentaro made his own.
Who cares now if they could've communicated better, or who was wrong, or what the reasoning was? Dice certainly doesn't give a single fuck. All that matters is that Gentaro doesn't hate him, Gentaro loves him, and they're a thing now.
A thing Gentaro puts a name to moments later, on the heels of a beautiful laugh that Dice has never heard before.
He has no answer besides a laugh of his own, the most inescapable embrace, and a kiss that'd put any Hollywood movie to shame.]
[ Dice is passion and ferocity when it comes to love, and more than anything, he is a home Gentaro never wants to leave. He's content to simply be in his orbit, but what Dice gives him is so much more.
He is Dice's, and Dice is his.
Gentaro isn't experienced at all in the realm of physical intimacy like this, but he trusts Dice. He's trusted him for so long, even before he'd handed the manuscript to him. So as Dice kisses him to within an inch of his life, Gentaro gives just as good as he gets.
This is happiness in its purest form. Maybe he's taken on some of Dice's love of thrills, because as his heart races and pounds in his chest, he parts his lips against his. ]
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I hope it reminds her of what she's done. Dice can't imagine a more loving reaction to this. He's never entirely sure how to handle his mother's situation, or her absolutely horrific decisions, but he found Gentaro and Ramuda, and they're his world now.
Gentaro is his now. Dice's love and efforts won't be rejected or looked down on ever again, even when they're not quite good enough by other peoples' standards.
His eyes close at the kiss, and he returns it with all the emotion he can't put into words. If this is what being loved feels like, he's glad he made every stupid decision in life that led him to Gentaro's side.]
I don't want you to leave me. Ever.
[That is damn hard for Dice to admit. That he cares about anything but money and being thrilled nearly to death might be shocking to anyone but Fling Posse, but that he cares this much is bound to confound even Gentaro. At least, that's what Dice thinks.]
D'you know how scared I was when I thought you hated me? So don't even joke about stuff like that ever again, okay? I'm... I'm sorry about the manuscript. But don't hate me. Please.
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It breaks his heart, how much he'd hurt Dice. He looks down at him, memorizing his face, looking into his eyes. Dice has always had beautiful eyes, but it's like all those feelings have been amplified.
He really was an idiot for trying to pull away. Fear is a tricky thing, though. But even if he had his reasons, they weren't good reasons, and Gentaro will never make excuses. It's even worse to think about, now that he knows about his past.
He'll devote his life to making Dice happy, instead. It's a powerful thought, and Gentaro kisses him, deeper and more loving than the previous kisses they've shared. ]
I won't leave you, [ he says, when he pulls away just slightly. Their lips are still so close together; Gentaro's brush just lightly against Dice's as he talks. ]
You have no reason to apologize. When I took the manuscript, I considered using it in much the same way. It was more impactful coming from you. [ A pause. ] I will never treat you that way, ever again. I could never hate you.
I'm sorry, Dice. [ He kisses him again, because he'll never get enough of him. ] Whatever I need to do to make amends... simply tell me, and I will do it.
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He figures he'll have to come clean to Ramuda, too, now. Ramuda might punch him, though. That'd be fine. He'd deserve that one.
For now, he's happy to just bask in Gentaro's reassurances. He runs his hands up Gentaro's back and slips one into his hair, keeping him close.]
I don't wanna hear you apologize... It ain't like that. I coulda told you how I felt a long time ago, right? And we coulda had this talk a long time ago. But I was bein' stupid.
[He knows, he knows.]
You don't hafta do anything. Stay with me, I mean, but... Other than that... Don't act like lovin' me is some kinda thing you have to do because you feel bad, is all.
[Slowly, softly, gently, he kisses Gentaro, but this time he lets it slip into something a little deeper, something committed and bold. When he finally breaks away from it, he murmurs:]
I'm gonna protect you so you can protect your brother. And when he wakes up, you better introduce me as your favorite dumbass.
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They're moving toward something pivotal, he knows. It excites him, makes him feel a thrill he's never experienced. And the kiss--it's tinged with something Gentaro has only dreamed about. His breath catches in his chest, color blooming across his cheeks. ]
Mm. We could have both communicated better, no? [ He opens his eyes, gazing down at him with open adoration and something a little more heated. ] As far as loving you.... Not once has it been an obligation or burden.
I'll stay by your side, just as you will mine. We'll protect each other, as we always have. [ He laughs softly, then, and it's much lighter and more free than it's ever sounded. ] As for meeting my brother... Why don't I introduce you as-- [ a pause ] --"the person I want to spend my life with"?
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Who cares now if they could've communicated better, or who was wrong, or what the reasoning was? Dice certainly doesn't give a single fuck. All that matters is that Gentaro doesn't hate him, Gentaro loves him, and they're a thing now.
A thing Gentaro puts a name to moments later, on the heels of a beautiful laugh that Dice has never heard before.
He has no answer besides a laugh of his own, the most inescapable embrace, and a kiss that'd put any Hollywood movie to shame.]
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He is Dice's, and Dice is his.
Gentaro isn't experienced at all in the realm of physical intimacy like this, but he trusts Dice. He's trusted him for so long, even before he'd handed the manuscript to him. So as Dice kisses him to within an inch of his life, Gentaro gives just as good as he gets.
This is happiness in its purest form. Maybe he's taken on some of Dice's love of thrills, because as his heart races and pounds in his chest, he parts his lips against his. ]