soulager | SLUTTY GENDICE POST FOR SLUTTY GENDICES

[ He doesn't realize he's holding his breath until Dice is finished talking. Turning toward him, he nods. ]

... You can.

[Dice reaches over and almost touches his fingertips to Gentaro's cheek before thinking better of it.]

Look, I might've been kind of... understating my intentions. I'm not the first guy to admit when I'm doing something stupid, but I don't mind being stupid right now. I really, really, really want to impress you. And... make you like me. Like... "like" like.

[ Ah.

Gentaro's eyes widen. He doesn't know what to think at first. No one's ever told him anything like this -- unsurprising, considering how he keeps to himself. ]

I--

[ He takes a deep breath and looks down at his hands in his lap. There's that urge again, to touch him, but he holds back.

Finally, he lifts his gaze to Dice's. ]

... You're off to a very good start.

[Well, that's better than Dice expected. He leans back into his seat and claps his hands together in a little moment of acknowledging victory, then runs fingers through his hair with a laugh.]

Okay. So, maybe I've got an idea. We can go shopping later. I can... Maybe I can take you out first? Coffee, tea, food, whatever you want. I mean, unless you really want that outfit right this minute. I just think while the vibes are good, we can... You know. Go talk like normal people or something.

[ It's not fair that he's so beautiful when he's relaxed like this. The way he responds is unfairly charming, too. Gentaro laughs, a little breathlessly, before he reaches out. A moment of hesitation passes before he tucks a bit of hair behind his ear. ]

I agree. Shopping can wait. [ ... ] There's a cafe I frequent. We could go there.

[Did he just get touched...? His whole body feels warm, and he shivers faintly.]

Okay. Perfect. I don't mind you showing me off a little bit, after all! Point the way. I can drive us there.

[ Cute. Gentaro pulls his hand away with a hum. ]

You're very confident.

[ But he says it fondly. Smiling slightly, he directs him to the cafe. It's difficult to look away from Dice, but he manages well enough. ]

You have no idea how not confident I was feeling until a couple of minutes ago, okay!

[He laughs, taking the directions and following them to get them there safely and at a mostly reasonable speed.]

...This is a pretty fancy neighborhood.

[ He lets out a soft laugh, but it's strangely nice. Gentaro isn't at all used to this, to being the center of someone's attention. Despite it all, he's not going to get his hopes up too much. Things can go very wrong very quickly, after all. ]

Mm, it's one of my favorite places.

[ He looks at him--and he doesn't realize it--fondly. ]

I write here and meet with my editors very often.

[He catches that look, but he can't recall ever being looked at with an ounce of real affection in his life, so he doesn't know what to make of it.]

Yeah? You're a hell of a writer. I guess the nice background noise can only help.

[He practically leaps out of the car to run to the other side and open the door for Gentaro with a grin.]

[ Way to fluster him all over again!! Gentaro gets out, and he covers his mild embarrassment with a teasing smile. ]

Oh my, do I have a fan? Goodness, I'm not sure what to say... Ah, my heart is racing...

[He says his heart is racing and Dice just can't resist anymore. He reaches out and pushes Gentaro's hair neatly out of his face for a moment, looking at him like he's seeing him for the first time.]

I mean, mine too. When you look like that.

[ He draws in a breath, and it takes everything in him to not lean into the touch. It had been a joke (mostly) but now it really is. The way Dice looks at him like that, too... ]

... Shall we go inside?

[ Part of him doesn't want to, but he's too embarrassed to say otherwise. ]

[Dice is too distracted by everything about Gentaro for a moment, and he doesn't immediately register the question. When he does, he looks slightly embarrassed.]

Ah. Yeah. That's fine. Gotta... have drinks and everything.

Yes. ... Of course.

[ But he's not making any move to go inside. ]

[Dice admitted to himself days ago that he had fallen for this man, but now there's something in his mind screaming at him to act on it.

So he does. He reaches for Gentaro's hand and holds it loosely, waiting to see what he'll do.]

It's... kinda a date, right?

[ Dice's hand is warm, comforting. Gentaro could lie and part ways with him. He should, maybe. Getting involved with the Prime Minister's son is a disaster waiting to happen.

But... Dice is good. Kind. He's so much more than they deserve. It's selfish, but if Gentaro can bask in that warmth and light even for a moment, he'll take it. Easy as breathing, he slides his fingers through Dice's. He's still unsure, brand new to anything like this, and he's worried he'll lose his footing.

The smile he gives Dice is small, but warm and genuine. ]

I would like it to be.

[Dice lights up when Gentaro takes his hand more securely, his grin ten times brighter than Gentaro's.]

I'll pay, so it's definitely a date! And then we can do whatever you want.

[He scoffs a bit, looking away for a moment.]

Do you know how hard it's been to, like, not? To just act like I'm chill and don't give a fuck?

My, you're doing an excellent job of wooing me, Dice.

[ Teasing, but he moves closer. Their hips touch, and Dice is so incredibly warm. He wants to wrap himself up in him. ]

Pretend around everyone else. When it's just us, I want to see that side of you.

[He knows, he's not a romantic, probably. Actually, he wouldn't know. He's never been able to try to date or see anyone. He has ideas about how to treat people, how he's seen in movies or seen at parties when he really shouldn't have... He's just not totally sure how to apply that to real life.

Gentaro moves closer, too close, and Dice feels awkward just holding his hand. This has to be an invitation of some kind... so he wraps his arms around Gentaro, hoping no one else will see. It's a casual hold, one that Dice figures out quickly is sensual and not sentimental at all.

He doesn't have a choice but to barrel forward. He's so close, and Dice's eyes fix on Gentaro's lips as he licks his own.]

Like this, right?

[ The last time anyone had held him, it was his brother, and it had been... a long time ago. This is different. Gentaro's never allowed anyone close enough to wrap their arms around him and hold him close. He's so out of his depth, but he gets the feeling that's true for Dice, too.

Suddenly, it's just the two of them. Everything else melts away from the heat between them. Hesitantly, he rests his hands on Dice's shoulders, but he relaxes and squeezes them a moment later. His eyes rest on Dice's lips, too, before he locks his gaze on his. ]

Just like this.

[Dice meets Gentaro's gaze, leaning in slightly... Before he backs off a short distance again with a marked swiftness.]

Sorry. I mean--it's fine if I kiss you, right? Just checking. If that's too fast--

[ Gentaro tugs him closer by his shirt, then loops his arms around his neck. It's sweet that he asks, and Gentaro feels himself falling a little more.

He leans in and kisses him. Hesitant at first, then firmer. His eyes close, his hand sliding up into his hair. ]

[Well. That shuts him up, at least, and he leans into the kiss, tightening his hold on Gentaro as he closes his eyes. The kiss is warm and though Dice is second-guessing himself, he does what he can to make it a kiss Gentaro will remember.

Because he's sure he's going to think about this for the rest of his life. He doesn't know what he's doing, but he takes it upon himself to lead the kiss, soft and sweet, but with a touch of boldness. Dice refuses to go too far while they're out here in public, but this lights a fire in him. He knows he's give Gentaro anything he asked for, and that no longer just means money.]

[ Like hell he'll ever forget this. Against his better judgment, Dice has become irreplaceable. He'd tried so hard to fight it, but now that he sees Dice as he truly is, now that they've shared this, he's content to accept it.

Head swimming pleasantly, he breaks the kiss and touches their foreheads together. With a breathless chuckle, Gentaro opens his eyes. ]

Are you still determined to go inside?

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